What started as an experiment has been swirled and twirled, tumbled and tossed into a smattering some would refer to as a beginning. The beginning. We all have to start somewhere. This Unraveling is where I choose to begin. It has been difficult to find a linear way to tell my story. It comes in waves, flashes, and translucent fragments as if being told to me and thru me. But still there is the need to actually begin. But how do you begin a story about The Everything/Nothing when there is still so much to tell?
I find myself focusing on integration and how my soul continues to work towards it with great commitment and intention. As I look back at my path, I see how I have battled like a warrior to both protect my inner child from the dangers of the world around - and how that was necessary for times when it felt like the world was spinning my limbs off.. But I also see how it distanced me from “her”: my inner child and most vulnerable self - the part that doesn’t question and knows what is truth.
Much of my work these past few years has been dedicated to disengaging with that armor I have guarded her with, being willing to let her out to play, and being open to trusting that the Universe will take care of her - and the other part of me that has faithfully served as her bodyguard.
By surrendering to the Universe, a most gorgeous experience of life has unravelled for me and that soft, sweet inner child has been freed from captivity. It feels as though a thick fog has lifted. I don’t need to question which way to turn next because right now I feel clearer than I ever have.
On March 23rd, 2017 I recorded a live performance with string trio Iridas and Hal Rosenfeld on drums. A livestream was available exclusively to all Kickstarter backers, Patreon subscribers, and those that have donated on the website. Later the unreleased recording was published on Patreon for subscribers.
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